Why do things keep going wrong today? I mean, I guess the majority of things haven't went wrong, but within the past 10 hours I feel kinda twighlight zone-ish. This morning, woke up on time, got to Biblical Counseling on time and got a seat in chapel. Laney gave his message, and then it was time for Hebrew. Hebrew went alright, other than the fact that Boyd's laptop broke and so he gave us a handout with a whole bunch of verbs that he wanted us individually to parse in front of the class. Now, I am terrible at Hebrew, and you can only imagine that if I hate public speaking in general, how much more I do not like trying to work out a problem verbally in a class where I really have no idea what I'm doing. It was a stressful class to say the least. Went to lunch, it was actually a great lunch. No awkward conflicts, no bitterness, no fighting, only good food and good company. And, I didn't spill anything on myself like I had yesterday! Now keep in mind that I have been nervous since the moment I woke up for my interview at the Boys and Girls club, @1pm. Sitting in Hebrew my stomach was churning in anxiety (and cramping due to finally PMSing after 7 months of not...but that's another story...) and I just wanted to get that interview over with. I kept trying to not make it so intense in my mind by saying that it isn't for a super professional job, I will just be telling them the basics, the truth about myself- piece of cake. But the time came for the interview and I was not buying the piece of cake deal anymore. I hate interviews. I hate having to boast about my strengths and weaknesses and make up random junk about goals and motivations. Sure, there are a lot worse things in life than interviews (like Hebrew exams- actually make that just Hebrew in general) but interviews in my experience are not fun. So the interview went so-so, I am not completely sure that I will be offered a position, but God has lead me here thus far and He will continue to lead me according to what He wants, and what He knows is best for me, despite what I want and think I need.
"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:9
(I just lost a big chunk of what I had written about things breaking and the problem situation with Amanda and Kaitlyn...of course I did.)
(now I guess I will rewrite the whole scenario that was at least the same amount that is above, if not more) (this just illustrates my point more...)
So I left the Boys and Girls club and drove back to campus. I needed to retake my NTS2 midterm, so I decided that I would just park in a visitor spot at north campus, seeing as it was Friday, the parking lot was practically empty and there were 2/3 visitor spots available. I thought- how will they know I'm not a visitor? (I'd forgotten about the sticker that is on my front windshield saying that I am a resident). And technically, I am a parking visitor because residents aren't supposed to park anywhere except for the resident lots. I thought I was good to go and didn't think twice. So I was sitting in front of the Biblical Counseling Department on a bench studying my notes before going in and taking the exam. I look up and see a Security Guard walking away from my car with a stack of parking tickets in his hand. I'm like, oh no, he better not have given me a ticket... so I walk over to my car and sure enough, there was a ticket. As I was briskly walking to my car I was thinking, maybe he didn't give me a ticket, maybe he was walking away from another car... but as I got closer to my car I discovered the ticket under my windshield. So I grab the ticket and decide that I should just leave because now I've been humiliated in front of a whole group of people who saw the guard distribute the ticket and then me walk up practically right behind him and snatch it off- so I left. I parked in front of the dorm, called Amanda and I started majorly crying. I was so angry. She calmed me down a bit, and told me to go inside and wash my face, cool off and then go take the exam. So I did, and then I headed off for north campus. On my way down, I stopped at the Guard shack to try and fight the ticket. It was the guy who gave me the ticket, and he said that I was in violation of the code and there was nothing he could do. Butthead. Why is it that at Christian schools so many people get shown grace in classes and with other campus matters, but when it comes to me- nothing. No grace. It's not fair- but I guess that's life. So I walked away from the guard shack, crumpling the ticket in my hand as I did, and walked 10+ minutes to North Campus and took the exam. After the exam I went and paid the parking ticket. I just faced the facts that I would have suffer the consequences of my decisions, and there was nothing I could do about it. I hated flushing my very limited amount of money down the toilet for a bad choice, but there wasn't really any other option. I talked to my grandma for a while when I got back up to the dorm, and told her about my day, and she said that she'd sent me a letter with $40 in it yesterday, so I will be $20 up on Monday! That was pretty cool how God showed me favor once again from a not so good situation. Then the freezer door broke. Then a file that I had just opened wouldn't open again.
It's been a long day.
Thank the Lord that Amanda and Kaitlyn worked out with our R.A. the situation that had been going on for a while now, and we were able to go down to SunValley and have a very good Mexican dinner and BobaTea dessert. Shockingly my stomach is still doing great after the food/drink! I have gotten sick after just about every meal this past week and it is getting old- I was almost positive that I'd get sick from eating these foods. Praise God I haven't!
Amanda and Kaitlyn left for the movie store about 45 minutes ago...which seems like kind of a long time to rent one movie, but anyway, I am done with this journal and I want to go to bed. Long day. Wasn't that terrible, but wasn't all that great.
God is still good. :)
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