And now...

Senioritis is really bad. I only have a few more things left to do until I'm done, but I can't seem to muster up the motivation to do them. The list includes: An 8-10 page research paper for Biblical Method of Missions. Can be on just about anything within missions and reaching any sort of people group. My presentation is in a week, and I plan on working on the paper...ummm...Friday night? Yeah...Friday night. I'm a loser like that and never have any Friday night plans anyway, so I guess that will be the night that I'll need to dig REALLY deep for motivation. The next thing is a 5 page research paper for English Literature. There is a list of topics that I can choose from, and since I'm not creative (especially in matters of literature), I'll most likely be doing that. That is due Wednesday, May 7th. (two weeks from today). Also on that day, I have ten 100-word journal entries on ten class lectures/ things that spurred my interest. Should be pretty easy, and yes, this is one of those projects that the Prof. encourages you to work on throughout the semester so that you aren't cramming ten sloppy entries into one evening/night, but I've never been able to remain that self-disciplined with those "semester-long" projects. So I plan on doing those on Monday, May 3rd and if need be 5/4. And really, that's about it. I have an Ethics test this Monday coming up, and then I have 3 finals all on Wednesday, 5/7 all back to back. Seniors are exempt from taking the OT final which would be on Monday, 5/5- OH YEAH! I was hoping for maybe ONE less final, but hey, I'm not complaining, at least I got one final cancelled in honor of my Seniority. And then, I have an ENTIRE Directed Studies course to complete by May 31st. It's a LOT of work. Nothing too treacherous, just lots to do. I really wish that along with graduation came no more homework/schoolwork, but unfortunately, not for me. :(

I am also going mad/crazy with finding out if I passed Senior Comp. or not. I wouldn't be so crazy if it weren't for a girl in my class today telling me that her advisor graded hers and she PASSED! She said that my advisor was known for grading them fast too, which I sorta knew, but for me, I thought fast was like 4 days- not THE NEXT DAY!!! So, I was a tad jealous of her and so after class I sped over to the Student Center to see if I had a slip in my mailbox with my results- and there wasn't. I then scurried over to the library to check my Master's email, and there wasn't anything from Behle there either. I didn't sleep well last night AT ALL, mostly because I was panicking that I might not have passed. The doubt just keeps creeping in- which is bad, I know, but seeing as this determines if I get my diploma in a few weeks or not- it is sorta a big deal.

So now, I continue to wait. As God is constantly pushing the patience button in life. But I also continue to trust that God is sovereign and God is good. My life verse rings true, even today: "For we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose" (Romans 8:28)

One of the main messages of the Book of Psalms is of trust.

May I TRUST that God is in control. He knows what He is doing. He is God, and I am not (thank God!) May His WILL be done here, in my life, as He has orchastrated in heaven.