The holidays were nice, I really enjoyed spending a couple of days with my sister. She is 15, a sophomore in high school, and she starts driver's education in 2 weeks. Very surreal. She just had knee replacement surgery on December 5th, after tearing her ACL, MCL and PCL in a wakeboarding accident in July. She is a tough one. I have kept in touch with her lately about how her healing process is going, and she was in a lot of pain for several weeks. She is now walking on it, and should be back in the pool in 3 months. For those of you who don't know, my sister is an All-Star athlete. She wins every race she swims, and is a major asset to a swim team. She breaks pool records that are 20+ years old many times when she swims, and basically, this is her gift. When she fractured her knee/ tore her tendon, she was lost and confused for several months, not sure of how to cope. But, to my amazement, even in that situation she turned to a God that she does not know and looked for a greater purpose. She told me that she knows there must be some reason this happened to her, even if she can't see why now, she knows that God is in control. This brought me to tears. I am the only Christian in my family, and to hear my sister have this kind of faith blew me away. We haven't talked much about God and faith, but I know she knows I am here to talk whenever she is ready.
I wish at times that we lived closer to each other. 400 miles just takes a long time to travel. With gas prices at their lowest in a long time, it isn't even so much the cost as the 5 hours it takes to get there, and then the 5 hours it takes to get back. I really can't believe that she will be driving in a couple of weeks, and then on her own in 6 months. My little sister!! DRIVING?!!! It kind of scares me to death. One more major way that she, as the little daredevil, could be seriously hurt or killed. But I guess we can't live life in fear. God IS in control, and has protected me as well as many people I know from situations that could have killed us.
In cheerier news, my roommate, Amanda, got engaged on Tuesday, December 30th, 2008!!! Their wedding is planned for August 22nd, 2009 in San Luis Obispo. I am the Maid of Honor (MOH) and I really have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing as such. I know that I'm supposed to help Amanda with picking out dresses, and coordinating the other bridesmaid stuff, as well as planning the Bachlorette party and bridal shower. I guess mostly, I know my duties are aimed towards moral support for her. I hope I don't let her down!!
I am looking into getting a second job for several reasons, they are:
-I just found out today that my car has a leak in the water pump, and will cost $650 to replace, this coming two weeks after spending $400 on a new oil pan.
-I am lonely and bored a lot of days of my life- Saturdays are the worst. I usually wind up going and shopping- something I should NOT be doing on a tight budget! So, extra money for that would be nice.
-As the MOH, I need to buy my own dress and shoes for the wedding, as well as helping pay for the parties. Don't know where that money would come from.
-Just found out today that with the addition of my sister to my mom's car insurance policy, I will be getting the boot. That there's an extra 100 a month that I will need to find.
-I'm moving soon, due to my roommate getting married, and that takes money.
-I have $400/month student loan payments that my parents, who are already financially stretched, are having to help me pay for.
-The amount that I am making at Sunshine is currently frozen, with no hope for increase anywhere in the near future, thanks to the economy being in the state that it is.
-And then there's the kind of silly (but not seeming too silly when working at a preschool with ALL WOMEN) idea of finding a workplace with the hope of meeting a guy to date. Sure, I know the probability of meeting a Christian guy in the area is pretty slim, but hey, this is a new year. There is hope, right? Well, I hope there is hope, even for me.
So, there's like 8 reasons that I need another job. An ideal job would be evenings from like 7-10pm and weekends from like 2-10pm. A 30 hour a week part time job would really help, even at minimum wage. So I am praying like a mad person that something like that is possible and available in the area.
Regarding the moving situation, my friend at work, Misty, just got married and lives in a 2 bedroom apartment with her husband. I mentioned the dillema that I would have to start looking for a room to rent in the area pretty soon, and she said several times, "move in with me, move in with me, move in with me!!" So, that made me happy. It made me feel very loved, for one, and she said that I would make an excellent roommate for several reasons. :) She said she would run the idea by her husband, and see what he said and then let me know Monday. I really hope that works out, because Misty really is one of the nicest people I know, she has already been such a good friend in the 4 months I have known her, it would make me really happy to live with her.
I think I have made the resolution to lose weight every year since I was 18, and sadly, every year since I was 18, I have only put on more weight. But, I can't keep gaining weight. A big motivation this year to lose at least some weight is the wedding in August. Another one of my resolutions this year is to figure out my health issues. I have several of them that I'm just not getting taken care of. I will be 24 this year, and I can't keep ignoring my body's issues. I'm almost a quarter of a century old! If I plan on living to a half of a century, I need to figure these things out now.
I bought 3 Biggest Loser DVDs today, and I am excited to be taking action. I bought a Biggest Loser "Boot Camp", and it actually has a 6 week program that you select on the menu, and throughout the 6 weeks, it gets increasingly harder. I really like these DVDs because they have a menu where you customize your workout to what you want to do. If you only have a half an hour, you select the 20 minute cardio, 5 minute warm up and 5 minute cool down. If you have longer, you can add 10 or 15 more minutes to the cardio. So it's not the same exact workout everytime, they vary a bit depending on what you want to do. I love the Biggest Loser (even though I've only seen parts of a couple episodes) because it is real life people that you see as very overweight, and you see all of the sweat and tears that are put into their workouts, and then you see their jumps for joy when it has paid off. You see the physical and emotional differences in these people, and it is so encouraging. Even in the DVD, they aren't all in excellent shape. They are doing their best, and you can see that, and it is just so encouraging for me to do the best with the mobility I have. Doing what I can will make a difference, even if it takes a while. I hope I have the endurance, perseverance and motivation to keep going over the next year to really take this body fat off! That's what a new year brings, right? Hope. I sure have some high hopes this year!
Anywho. I am kind of hesitant about driving my car tomorrow- every time I drive it I have to add coolant because with the water pump leaking, I guess it leaks coolant too, and so it needs it refilled. So, I only plan on driving to church and then home. (Hopefully hanging out with Jessica for a bit tomorrow because I was quite bored and lonely today).
I know there has been a lot of other things over the past few months that I have wanted to blog about, but have just been too lazy to sign on and take the time to blog. Hopefully I will keep up with blogging this year, too!
Here's a song I have loved over the years, but it really resonated with me this morning when I listened to it again:
The Only One
Caedmon's Call
I come from a long line of leavers
Out of the garden gate with an apple in their hands
I expect and I believe
You're gonna run out of love
You're gonna give me the shove
'Cause that's the thing that lovers do
Then there's you
You found me cynical and jaded
You lifted my mask and lightened me up
And when my black eyes have faded
I found they were not gouged
Had the coal in my mouth
I've never seen the old age new
And then there's you
You're the only one
Who knows my secrets
You're the only one
Still you're the only one
Who never leaves
And I wake up to this mystery
I betrayed you with a little kiss
I thought you'd find someone better
And you forgave me even for this
Came to the upper room
You dragged me from the tomb
There is none both good and true
Then there's you
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Happy New Year to you and your family.
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